Apologies

For all those moments when it seemed I didn't care ,
For all those times a smile I couldn't wear,
I apologize.
For all those calls that went unattended,
For all the rudeness that never was intended,
I apologize.
For all those memories that I made distant,
For all those things lost in an instant,
I apologize.
For all those times I didn't call back,
For all those moments when I seemed to have cracked,
I apologize.

Cause its today I tell you, time simply flies,
We get so lost, in our lows and highs.
True people are those who will there  be ,
In a second everything they will believe.


Cause when you are alone, and all seems at peace,
Its moments like these that trouble thee.
Its people like these whom you remember,
And think of apologizing to make things better.
Cause deep within your heart, you love them every bit,
And however immense the anger, mustn't you quit.

Cause these are the people meant to be,
Cause these are the people who have seen,
You grow into a person so fine,
Accepted your flaws without even a sigh.
Cause these are the people, you cherish the most,
Even though at moments you might not show ,

Cause time is precious and too much I mustn't take,
So here with this, I end what I had to say,
For if it took too long to read through this ,
And something important you seemed to have missed,
I apologize.

It's All In Our Head

Firstly, a very happy New Year ! :D
Secondly, I am so glad I am typing this out and just hope that I do publish the same. I had started fearing that I would soon become one of those people who start off a blog with great enthusiasm, great frequency of posts and then suddenly that frequency dips down to a number, from where it just can't get any worse. Oh and if you're one of those, just hit "New Post" on your blog and you'll be happily typing away.
Back to the first thing I said. Happy New Year. Why do we celebrate New Year by the way ? No, I'm not trying to be cynical, nor do I have anything against celebrations. It's just that I am wondering what's so special about a new year ? What ? Are we like celebrating the fact that the Earth was able to complete a revolution ? Or maybe this year we were celebrating the World not coming to an end on 21st December.

We humans are such a funny specie! I mean, we need the Earth to orbit around the Sun completely to make us realize that yes, today its a new beginning. Why can't we do the same with rotations ? I mean give the planet due credit for bringing us day and night continuously without fail !
We need a special day. We need a day that is all hyped about. What happens once you enter a new year ? Do we forget the past ? Do we not remember what we did on 31st December of the previous year ? I have heard so many people (including me) calling a New Year as a new beginning. What I'm trying to say is, why wait for a new year ?
I guess a fresh year is just something that's been thrust upon all of us, hence we are forced to think of it as a new beginning thereby giving rise to all the celebrations. Imagine the mood if we started being grateful for the rotations as well ;)

I started this with something else on my mind(yes, again) and I went on to saying something completely different, not completely unrelated though. Since it was there on my mind, I might as well just sum it up with this quote by Henry Ford :
"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right."

What's so great about this quotation is that it puts across the several theories on human psyche in such a simple language that it makes us wonder whether in reality things really are that simple ;) The line not just means that we know ourselves or the fact that whatever we decide for ourselves is correct(to the best of our knowledge). It is just so amusing. It is in our hands to think whether or not we can achieve something, right ? It is upto us and whatever we decide, it's right. So why not quit doubting and rather trust ourselves to make through whatever it is that's the next big obstacle ?

Human beings, you, are capable of so much more than what you give yourself credit for. It's all in your head. Really. Everything.
The fact that we're here simply means we must have been doing something right all this while. Let's continue doing just the same ;)

P.S : Happy New Beginning ;)

Losing Yourself

And then as one sits, thoughts are immense,
Feelings are great.. confusion hence,
The way things are, seem out of control,
There isn't any path nor the presence of a goal,
Its all about rushing, we all seem at pace,
In the end there's no winner, to this rat race.

But still it seems like the thing to do,
Lost in time,you have no clue.
You're moving too fast, its time you slow !
Live each moment, don't just with time you flow !
What you are today, is what you wanted once,
Regrets..sorrow..there's nothing such !
What you do now,will shape things to be,
How that turns out,is for you to see.
Work should make you happy! It gives life purpose,
Start smiling now! Would be worth the effort.

There's no point thinking what could have been,
It's time to create your future, cause that's yet to be seen,
Cause each day is as new,as it seems just the same,
Cause its time to start afresh, its time to spark a change .
Don't lose yourself in the duration of time
Its the only thing, that'll always be thine !

Untitled

Alright.

So I have this term paper due at 9 tomorrow morning. I am sitting in my college Cafe and instead of completing the report, I am busy typing this out. 

I don't really know what is it that instigated me to start this ! It happens all the time, you know ? There are ALWAYS so many things that I plan to write about, that I think of writing , but I always end up writing something completely different ! Something completely unaccounted for, something that I had never 'planned' to write about ;)

But then that's just the way things work, isn't it ? Things don't always work as per our plans? Don't always, but they do often as well ;) Now I hadn't really planned that I would sit and type this out here in college when I have work dancing around my head. But then, you never really can foresee the effects of a walk in the Winter evening around your own college campus, can you ?

What I was thinking of, what I was wondering about was something about satisfaction. I mean, there are so many things that are there in my mind which are completely unconnected but they all just seem to make sense in a weird possible way.

We people change. We change so much. Our language changes, our dressing style changes, its probably our deeply founded value system that does not change, but we keep changing. Every day, every second.

Change is the only constant, isn't it ? Seriously, think about it, the person you were yesterday, you aren't today. That word you were using the entire past week ? It's not even on your mind now! The things that didn't let you sleep for the past few days, you've probably overcome some of them by now. Don't these things make us stronger ? Overcoming failures ? Overcoming our own fears ? Why do we get scared ? What do we get scared of ? I mean, think about it. We get scared of things not working out in the way expected, we get scared that people might not behave in the way we expect them to, we get scared thinking of what the future holds for us and whether or not it would stand up to our expectations. Expectations ! Ooolaa ! Too hot to handle ! 

But then again, it's human to expect isn't it ? It's human to imagine the way the future might be, and it's human to expect some people to be there by your side always.

Now , from where did this come from ? I was talking of satisfaction ! See ? Now you might not be able to get the link here, but I can clearly see it. It's when you accept your expectations and when you accept your reality that you are satisfied. Oh yes ! That's just the way it works ;) Things may or may not go as per your plan, as per what you expected things to be. But then, just that fact that you are here, and you have the ability to crib over the fact that things did not go as per how you wanted them to, ought to make you super happy ;) 

You know what I'm saying ? Cause it means that you still have it in you to not accept the way things have turned out to be but rather put your best foot forward and make things the way you want them to be. Oh yeah, drifting away again from the topic now, aren't we ? But it's all interconnected. All of it. 

Expectations, Reality, Satisfaction.

And it's that immense satisfaction that I am feeling right now ! Which I can't even understand why and how! 

I guess I am just in a playful mood, cause when the clock is ticking away and giving me a sly look pointing towards the fact that I might just not be able to complete my paper, I am sticking my tongue out towards it and accepting the open challenge posed by it towards me ;)

Makes Sense ? I don't think it does either ;)

Being Happy

'Happiness' is a relative term. "Being happy" further so.
I think how most of us perceive happiness these days, its more of a state of being 'un-unhappy'. When we see we don't have anything to be unhappy about, we claim ourselves to be happy. That's kind of funny, isn't it ? I mean, shouldn't it be the other way round ?
What is happiness ? What does it mean to be truly happy ? Never really while we were kids, were we taught the meaning of "being happy", nor did our parents or teachers sit with us at length for hours to explain us the importance of this five letter word. I doubt either of us has ever really looked up it's definition in a dictionary, unless of course it's meant to be quoted in some formal essay required by some institution !
I think the reason why we weren't spoon-fed the same was cause it was left to us to give this term our very own definition.
Happiness is relative. For a five year old, getting new crayons or a big box of chocolates is happiness (the later would be a major source of happiness for some of us even still though ;)), being praised by the teacher in school in front of the entire class by a teacher might be the source of happiness for a seven or eight year old. A person studying for her board exams might feel immense happiness upon completely the syllabus prior to the expected time maybe. But as and when I start moving up the ladder of age, I start finding it hard to quote such examples of happiness for people. What would an engineer be happy about ? Completing his job successfully ? Going back home after a tiring day of work to find home cooked food and a smiling family in anticipation of his return maybe? But then again, that would be true for all those people who spend the day working, and not just for Engineers specifically! What would a student be happy about? Getting marks ? Attending all lectures one fine day thereby completing a dare set for him by his fellow mates ? Or maybe not attending even a single lecture and partying the entire day ?
It's relative. All of it is too relative. What happiness is to me might be boring to you. What brings happiness to you might not be of that much value to someone else. Best example ? Try asking a sadist what is the happiest moment of his life and you would probably get what I am trying to say.
We always try to generalize things, people. Mammal,homosapien,girl,boy,child,adult, married, single and so on. But happiness? We can't categorize happiness as per any such criterion.
Happiness is not perfection. There would be too less of it in the World then. 
Happiness is being satisfied. Not completely satisfied maybe, since humans have a tendency of not reaching that stage ever, but rather the acceptance of certain things in our life and believing in the fact that they are probably the best for us given the current circumstances.
It is being with the people you love and cherishing those moments all throughout.  

Happiness is not what makes you laugh, rather it is that little feeling that brings a slight smile to your face and makes you look forward to the next day, even if it is in the tiniest way possible.

Think Before You Speak

The title of this post is not something new. it's not a path breaking discovery made just seconds ago. It is probably something that we grew up listening to most often. This line was, I guess, one of the founding stones of our values taught to us by our parents, grandparents, elders, everyone. 
It was for me. I believe it must have been for you as well.
Either way, we know this, there has been many quotations written about this and we keep getting ticked off for saying wrong things at wrong times because we don't think carefully before voicing our opinions. 
What is going on in my mind right now is not the fact that people speak before thinking or that people don't understand the implications of their words on the other person. What I am thinking is how people don't realize whether saying something is apt or not ! It's about how some people fail to understand the situation in which one ought to talk about certain things.
I'll make myself more clear. I am not asking people to reflect on what they are saying or not to speak their minds out. Do that ! One must do that ! One must speak out what they are feeling, what they feel like expressing. What I am saying is that there is a time for everything ! There is a situation for everything. 
I am not saying we should think about the content that we are about to voice out but rather pay more focus on the environment that we are presently in and then decide whether or not it is apt to say the same ! 
The Chinese proverb "Don't speak unless you can improve the silence" is such because of some reason. 

While we are on this topic, you know, there are even certain people who think it is completely mandatory, absolutely essential for you to know their experience-filled advices. It is a duty performed by their soul to remind others of the areas in which they might falter, give highly knowledgeable advices on how to live life right, and how the World would begin seeming a much much better place had everyone begun living the way they did. It amuses me to think how such people always seem to have an opinion about anything and everything, how they can criticize people so easily and how they feel immensely satisfied performing the task of the IKnowWhatsRightForYou kind of a person. 
Approaching someone and listening to something sensible being said in response to something expressed by you is one thing, and having someone come up to you without having the complete knowledge of the happenings of your life and listen to things that seem right according to them is a completely different thing.
As much as I like both, I would prefer the first one anyday ;)

Yeah, think before you speak. Everyone might not be interested in everything you say all the time.

Priorities

Priorities play an important role in our life, in our day to day "functioning", in our daily choices and the decisions we take to spend our time accomplishing a particular task. 
What's amusing is that we don't only prioritize work, we also prioritize people. We prioritize almost everything. Every single act of ours showcases our priorities of life. 

What is priority ? Isn't it simply giving one thing more importance over the other ? Priorities change. They change not only over a long period of time, but also over a short span of even two hours. 
I know certain people (one with whom I've even had a conversation regarding all this ) who don't believe in this philosophy of priorities. But then we have the concept of time, right ?
A famous quote of Albert Einstein goes "The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once ". If everything doesn't happen at once,okay, hang on. First of all, most of the times things don't just magically "happen", things have to be made to happen. There is a great deal of molecular movement that is behind each and every action of our day to day lives and all those actions don't just "happen", we make them happen. 
The point I was making ? We don't just make everything happen at once. As much advanced as we might have become, as much multitasking experts that we might have evolved into, typing with one hand, eating with the other, conversing on phone via one ear and hearing music simultaneously via the other, we still CANNOT do everything at once. 
What do we do ? 
We choose. We pick. We decide. 
How do we do ?
We prioritize.

Most of the time I always have some incident, some conversation to cite, a result of which is the post that you are reading right now. But this time, I have none. I fail to understand from where this whole priority priority thing came into my mind, the only thing that might have transpired it would be the "Operating Systems" course being taught in the institute , but that is too far fetched to even give it a second thought. 
The point I am trying to bring across is, it's okay to lose track of your priorities once in a while.
It's okay to forget one assignment amidst all other tons of pending work. 
It's okay to forget to call up someone when you had an entire cloud of deadlines hovering right above your head. 
It's okay to let go off all your priorities and just calm yourself for sometime. 
What isn't right is to forget them completely. To ignore someone repeatedly. To leave a subject untouched time and again. 

I don't know how much of what I am saying is making sense. The way I have written it, it probably isn't making sense to me as well, but what I do know is that priorities play a major role in defining who you are and in defining your take towards life.

"Action expresses priorities " - Mahatma Gandhi